I attempted to write up my event last night so that I might remember what happened when it comes to E1 next year. At 2k words I gave up and went to bed. So many little moments that I want to remember, so much information in my head that I don’t want to forget.
Overall, this event has left me feeling overall happier and more content than at any other, even though it didn’t have some of the massive IC highs and lows that some of the others did. I started to make some headway in a personal mission that I’ve been trying to do for a while and it feels SO GOOD that there is movement on that. A lot of stress has dropped off that I don’t think I realised I was carrying.
So, here we go, random thoughts and musings:
My Nation
I got to be in you! For more than two minutes! I got to help ward camp! And dance like an idiot at the Winter Market! Many thanks to everyone who worked so hard to make the Market a success. I’ve come to terms with the fact that Agnieszka is never really going to be spending a lot of time in her home nation but it’s still wonderful to be able to dip in and out.
On that note, I actually managed to have almost an entire pint with my IC/OC husband while he told his fantastic ‘Warden and the Mora’ story. And, double whammy, I got to re-tell it later to people who seemed to like it.
I also loved the way that when I asked for help going into an unknown place, to do something unknown, against forces unknown I had my family (I love you all) and that of the Oxen Head at my back (thank you Sasha, I couldn’t have done it without you).
Thank you to everyone in the Eater of Hope skirmish, with especial thanks to the three(?) people who were turned away at the gate due to numbers – it always sucks to be the ones left behind. I felt for you.
Varushka National Assembly. We actually got together. And we are going to do stuff. Being interrupted by an urgent call for exorcists did rather break it but we have a Patriarch and the will to Do Stuff. It will be done.
Fighting with my nation. First off, I am really sorry I didn’t make monster slot on Saturday morning. I had convinced myself that I wasn’t going to take to the field this event, so I didn’t go… but on Sunday morning there was simply no way that Aga would let her family walk into Reikos without her. Lesson learned, do your slot regardless. You are impulsive and don’t like missing out on a good fight.
Nobody stopped Agnieszka saying yes to assuming command of the Family. Never give the priest under a Courage anointing the choice! Thank you OC to you all for letting me do it – clearly most of you would be better at the job than I am for hard skillz reasons but I loved it, even if the learning curve looks rather vertical at the moment. Totally something I would love to learn more about. My favourite moment was giving up waiting for you guys to finish your entirely safe and sensible backwards retreat, shouting for you to just RUN!, and us legging it into the fort to help out Highguard. We rocked.
Thank you to the lady that lent me a handful of liao to go to Reikos with – I owe you them back.
And finally for a wonderful moment with Rooslan where we see a concerning looking scuffle at the Regio. I run over, divest myself of all my clobber and stand, ready to grapple if needed… and he arrives a few moments later with shield and sword. Courage gets there first, but Wisdom is more likely to get out alive, da?
My Gatekeepers
Phew, that was a tough event… but you have no idea how much weight has been lifted from Agnieszka’s (and my) shoulders this event that things are changing. Yes, we were all there at the Meeting of Doom and it was pretty awful BUT I’m sure that all of us will do what we can to never be that Doom-y again. Things will get better, and I’m sure all of us have at least one idea of things that can be done differently in the future. I already have about six, so if you’re short one give me a shout. 
My Gatekeeper Assistant volunteers – thank you so much for stepping forward. Just the act of knowing I’m not alone made me feel so much better. We will be in touch.
My Synod
Oh Courage, how I love you. Best meetings on the field, wonderful people to work with, support, be supported by. Plans for combating threats to the Empire, plans for more experimental theology, exciting revelations, passing judgements, people volunteering to help, getting a real feel that there are things going on and that all are welcome to be a part of it. Thank you for voting in favour of recognising Marad for his Courage; it means a lot to Aga that his sacrifice won’t be forgotten, whatever may happen in the future.
Oh, and Loyalty Assembly… I’m watching you. 
My… uh… People?
I can’t remember all the interactions I’ve had, some of them with complete strangers, that have made this event great. Counselling people down out of rage and away from Vengence, giving confidence for others to face their fears, giving a safe space to be heard and recognised, I sodding love being a priest. And the simpler interactions: singing together, failing to have tea together, sharing moments of joy and relief with each other, just walking in the same direction together.
Thank you, everyone.