No problem. Not being in control is scary. I have just one more suggestion for you and that is looking into your improvisation skills. If you feel you are able to adapt to new situations then that could help with that. With me, I’m used to walking to different places so I know if the worse comes to the worse I could walk somewhere. Being able to do certain things can help your ability to adapt to new situations. You could also have certain things that you could keep with you at all times that would help with that. Having lots of things prepared can be a good substitute for improvisation.
I have an idea of how you could use a scarf as a belt. If you want to attach it to anything then have maybe have other materials that you can tie or sew to the scarf and hang off it which you could tie to other things. This means you can tie it to belt loops on trousers or tie bottles to it. I have two kinds of trousers that don’t require a belt because they have a cord that you can tighten. If you are making your trousers you could always leave an area to do this. Then you could just sew some pockets onto your clothes to put the bottles.